A beautiful word you say?

Something is supposed to be funny about this picture but i don't really get it...

Anyways snow came and the roads are a deathtrap now.

Social Status of those who died by suicide in Kerala (Year: 1999)

link here

You know what's a beautiful word? Funny is a beautiful word. Because at the same time, it tells of 2 separate expression.

Like : It's funny how people want something so much and when they get it, they kill themselves over it.

and,

It is more funny sometimes when people don't get that thing, they also kill themselves over it.

But it is even funnier, when those who got it, lost it, don't even think about killing themselves...

And it is funny, that this is something we don't really laugh about.

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N.B. Gosh my blardy sheets...thought I had a wisdom tooth growing yesterday it was so hyperemialy pain I thought my teeth were dying.

hmm..

GOD 3 : 2 WEEKS

not bad ...

This is a very interesting holiday...

Love you !!!

Buts and Becauses

John Mayer once said "Color change for no reason, words go from poetry to prose...When I'm not myself"

I have always believed that the reason why things happen around me is because I'm who I am. Things would not be the same, if I'm someone else. Today's color of the rainbow would not be red orange yellow when I'm someone else. Because I know that the RED I see, is not a RED anyone else would see. Because the wind would blow differently, if I'm someone else. Because the stars would appear less,or more, if I'm someone else.

This week(which has just begun) is one which is not about myself.

When you are not allowed to be yourself, you see what they see. Not what you want to see.
I am tired and exhausted, but they say the carriage will not reach it's destination without a horse pulling on it's wheels. You never seem to love enough, nor be allowed to...

Because who you truly are, suppresses the real you.

A puzzle with 5 edges can never complete the picture when all it need is 3..or sometimes just 2.

And no, I'm not talking about masks and make-ups here. This is what you are destined to be. This is true change. Because if it's up to me, everyone should be an artist, painting pictures that nobody would seem to appreciate. Or a writer writing his life story for his spouse to read. But no, life has shaped you and has a place for you in the society..
That is true change.

Should I even get into the pieces beside you in the big puzzle? Picture this, you have 2 poky pieces and 3 rough-edged pieces beside you, of course you're not a perfect piece everyone is dying for... maybe I have certain sides of me that needs smoothing. But the someone else you are tells you that its all that you can find to fit in. The real you can't fulfill your destiny in that place. No way. No freaking way. But nobody dares to disturb the big picture, because isn't that what it's all about, the big picture...Ends justifies means. period.

God, if you're taking me through this change. You better know what you're doing.
If not somebody's gonna get hurt real bad...

confused?

:)

then suddenly after some considerations

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p/s : got my new comp up and running.looks blardy cool man.

I THOUGHT OF SOMETHING WITTY!!!

IF YOU EVER SAW THIS SOMEWHERE BEFORE, I ASSURE YOU THAT THAT IDEA CAME FROM ME !

Had a witty moment while walking back from Hospital 47(a.k.a. the haunted hospital which looked like a Resident Evil Lab)

Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra al-Haj.
Bapa Permodenan Malaysia

Tun Abdul Razak.
Bapa Perpaduan Malaysia

Tun Hussein Onn.
BapaPembangunan Malaysia

Tun Dr Mahathir Mohammed.
Bapa Permodenan Malaysia

Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi
Bapa....
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Mertua

Yang Berhormat Datuk Khairy Jamaluddin.
Handsomest Politician Since Ong Wee Kee Lim Kit Siang.

p.s.: i m just so funny..
wonder if its raining as hard in malaysia?
sad people make rain fall down...
right? :)
if ppl don't sad so much then it wont rain so much lah..

Even The Sky Is Crying...

It has been a cold and rainy summer-end...

Moscow hates herself.

My legs have been hurting for quite a number of days due to the non-stop walking in and out of the room asking people to wait for their turn.
Malaysians sometimes do listen attentively, especially if their money depended on it.
But they do not read.

I guess I shouldn't be rainbowing too much...even home is pouring over the greens. Mr. Green, Mrs. Green and Ms Green.

Going to BDHX tomoro to go find out what an orangery is...
Is it an orchard or isit a restaurant.

:D

No pictures of anything yet.
Haven't buy my comp...
Pocket burning from price increment of everything. My oil was around 35rubles when I first arrived...3 years later it doubled.
Mineral water is now 25rubles...no longer 16rubles like last year.

wahahah..

how la
how la

It's that time of year again...only this time,it's more interesting

Will I see you again, Malaysia..?

2 days left before I fly off to potatoes, cabbages, and 2(TWO) years of unmalaysianess...

Of course I'm gonna say what I miss the most.
Wearing shorts out, slippers, pajamas, plain t-shirts.
Eating off the streets(not shaurma), buying random food everywhere, always have enough money to eat(Rm1 can buy nasi lemak), "normal tasting food".
Snookering
Fishing
T-V-ing
Call of Dutying
Eating, more
Footballing
Party-ing(well, sort of)
Yam Charing
Happying
Riana Greening
All the time :D
Waking up @ noon
Not sleeping at all...
Sleeping @ noon
I'm running out of words already..oh,oh..
Movie-ing
Eating,eating,eating

and all my fellow sausages out there...
Gonna miss all you peeps.

2 years without a sight of Malaysia, can be very tough...
I need to absorb as much of it as possible before I really fly off.
Need.to.go.fishing.

Aih~

N.B. Wall-e was superb. Probably be better if it was slightly longer on some parts, esp the pikat girl part, was too cute.

Love Conquers All

excerpt from The Rule of Four(pg 315) ;
"What do you see?"
On the right side of the picture were two naked women. On the left side , a baby boy beating a much larger and more muscular satyr.
"I don't know," I said, unsure which side of that picture I was supposed to be learning from.
"That," my father said, pointing to the boy,"is Love."
He Let it sink in.
"He's not supposed to be on your side. You fight with him; you try to undo what he does to others. But he's too powerful. No matter how much we suffer, Virgil says, our hardships cannot move him."

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Love is a noun, a verb, an adjective and the invisible...
It does not need solving.

Today in The Star...

Go check out the StarKids section...
Today the kids sent in their drawings of their, ladies and gentlemen, Mobile Phones.

Chew Yu Qian, 10, says: A handphone adds color to my life. I cannot live without one.

Choh Xie Yie, 11, thinks that with a handphone, she can chat all she wants. "If you are using a public phone, you can't talk too long because other people might need to use the phone" she says.

Seven year old Ooi Sim Bok is happy he has a handphone to call someone special every Saturday.

Khoo Yi Qi, 10, gets RM 50 a month to top up her handphone. She is pleased that she can call her friends with her handphone.

Wong XiMei, 8, writes: " My daddy will give me a handphone when I am 11 years old. Poor me. I have to wait 3 more years."

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What else can I say right?
I'm sure the special someone is sure darn happy to receive a call every Saturday.
And poor me, my daddy doesn't give me RM50 a month to top up my phone...lousy daddy...

Err...Oh My Goodness?

Seriously loh...what on earth am i doing..
Wayne Rooney is earning billions per year.
Sharapova is earning billions per few years.
Fakhrul is getting married next week...

I'm at home blogging...

Congrats dude!!
Fakhrullah a.k.a. superman!

wa lau ehh..

2 more weeks then i bye bye malaysia for 2 years..
yao mou...


Routine back home :-

Morning-Sleep
Afternoon-wake up , eat , TV , www.flash-games.net , eat , online
Evening-eat , TV , www.miniclip.com , confirm snooker or cod or boardgames , drink
Night-eat , TV(must watch at night) , online , snooker or COD or boardgames
Midnight-eat(mamak/McD) , online , www.flash-games.net , sleep ...

almost like everyday...
damn siok weh..

Remaining Check-List Items.
1)repair cool phone
2)repair ariel the laptop
3)buy Bang
4)buy HD and format and install
5)More snooker
6)More COD
7)More boardgames

Sometimes...I forget that I'm an engineering student...
Eh..i mean med student..

My Gift...

...to a world of safe driving and safe roads.

Damage : Rm 30.

I was being my ignorant and selfish self and not thinking about the safety of other drivers on the road when Jamie called and told me that he'll be late to Pelita SS2.
I answered the call and being the pathetic incompetent driver that I am, I did not even put on the hands-free kit nor put it on loudspeaker.
I drove like I owned the road. Jalan Ong Wee Kee, 47600, Petaling Jaya.

Then the good hearted and sensitive police officer noticed my intolerable behavior and asked me to pull to the side. He asked me if I knew what I did wrong.

Guilty as charged. I admitted.

He asked me to step out of the car, probably wanted me to have a feel of the atmosphere along the highway, so that I would finally understand how dangerous is it to maneuver a vehicle while handling a mobile phone. I solemnly and awfully felt the shame that I was enduring. I was so selfish!

He wrote down my offenses and told me the total amount of fine that I would need to pay when meeting the Head Officer in the Ministry.

Maybe it was a sparkle in my eyes or perhaps it was a tiny bit of compassion that stirred him to these words "I know that you are a student, you can't possibly afford this. I want to know...just, how can I help you". A tear was about to form in the lake of my eyes...Seriously!

He asked me in a very slow tone, "How much do you have right now?" and I opened my wallet to show him a few bank notes that I had just withdrawn from the ATM a couple of hours ago.

"Normally, this amount would not have sufficed for this kind of offense, but I can't penalize a repented heart...Alright," he said with much hesitation,"Rm 30 it is...but please be praying that your heart will understand, it had cost me more to forgive you"

"Yes sir,I will never forget"I answered him...regretfully.

The drive along LDP was one of the longest that I had ever. The guilt kept weighing in...

Then once I was in the SS2 area, Kehliang called...

K:"Ooi! Where are you la?"
W:"Blardy hell, got saman-ed la...stupid Jamie call me wrong time..
K:"Alar, where are you now la?"
W:"Oh, I'm still driving there la"

I Got PS-ed For The Very First Time !!!

yups.

My PASSPORT photo got photoshopped by the photographer.
He was a typical 50y.o. man who happened to have some extra time and he removed 3 pimples off my face..

And smoothened my face too.

And made me a little bit fairer

And gay-ed up my entire day..

WOOT!

kinda funny...

kinda funny when (chewbacca language sets in ala all the chewbacca blogs around the world)* srhhh brhhnhhh brwwwrr qwrrrnrr

also kinda funny when * byrnhhhh rnyhhh brwwrrrr? nahh ...bbrynrrr nyyrryrrhhjr

don't you think its funny?

oh just now
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jnhrry: whhrrr nyrrhr rerryr prnyrr brymmmrr nmmmmryyyrrhhh ?
me: bymmmmmrrrr nyyyyrrrhhhh hhhyyyrrrmmrrr 2 months myrrr otrrrmy
byyrrmtrr , also mmyrryyr mhhhryyy!!!

So far, I've caught Han2cock, Wanted and Hellboy...
1st 2 not so good la, Hellboy was not bad...nice story and all...

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I tell you, friends are friends... however different you may be or they may be...there is a link between friends.
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I am feeling kinda guilty though. because *bymrr hymmmmmnrr and also myrr mhnnnhhhh and aymmmr leeerrryrrnnh peekkkrrrynnhh ...

aih... :)

свободен я...

Where the Spirit of the Lord is
There is freedom
Where the Spirit of the Lord is
There is freedom

There is peace, there is love
There is joy

It is for freedom He's set us free
It is for freedom He's set us free

I'm free! (I'm free! I'm free!)
I'm free! (I'm free! I'm free!)
I'm free! (I'm free! I'm free!)
I'm free

We will walk in Your freedom, walk in Your liberty
We will walk, Lord
We will walk in Your freedom, walk in Your liberty
We will dance in Your freedom, dance in Your liberty
We will dance, Lord
We will dance in Your freedom, dance in Your liberty
We will jump in Your freedom, jump in Your liberty
We will jump, Lord
We will jump in Your freedom, jump in Your liberty

So today sorta almost finish everything
Just left Russian, then can call it a year already...
Wasted my time studying immunology(not really la, but still...). The teacher just asked 1 2 questions then in the end also will lepas one...

Today I slept and did not care about the time(or set an alarm, for that matter)
It's been a very long while since last I did that

Fishing trip!(Kelah and Kelisa's....)
Can't wait to go back home actually...seeing Satish and Nina fly on Monday. I gatal gatal have to go sign myself up for Turkey...and now have to wait 3 more weeks only can go back. Nina said it right the other day, she can't take it anymore...

Ai~yai~yai~yai~yai...
what has this world become into...All for that little number 5..

"for what good is it to man, to gain the world, but to lose his own soul"

Jesus, you're right man...so right dude...

I DECLARE SABBATH !!!

FRIDAY 5 PM ONWARDS SHALL BE MY SABBATH !!!
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wait..........
Friday got charity drive....
Saturday got combined fellowship...
Sunday have to study for Biochem
Biochem on Monday
Tuesday have to study for Immune
Wednesday is Immune
Thursday have to study for Russian
Friday is Russian(hopefully...)
Saturday got final bible study
Sunday got meeting with PK
Monday die die also must go Thai Airways to finalize ticket
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wait...
13 If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath and from doing as you please on my holy day, if you call the Sabbath a delight and the LORD's holy day honourable, and if you honour it by not going your own way and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,
14 then you will find your joy in the LORD, and I will cause you to ride on the heights of the land and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob. The mouth of the LORD has spoken.

Aiya...
how to have Sabbath like that...

Dillema / Dilemma ?

Sometimes the skies are so dark...you can barely see yourself heading in which directions...

Sometimes, sometimes...


Moonshine are colder than sunshines,
Winds are colder at night, though not stronger,
A million stars broke of from the Sun,
Doesn't seem to warm as the latter,
A million stars collide a million times a million times,
Sounds are silencer and steps are brighter,
The day is over...and tonight is longer...

Ceh...That one is it?? Chedet.

I think this is one of the best "Hidup Melayu" articles I've read...
Written by our very own Dr M....

Saya realist yang pegang kepada kenyataan. Memang Melayu menjadi Tuan dalam Tanah Melayu dahulu.

Tetapi kerana Melayu tidak berusaha melawan penjajah maka di zaman Tanah Melayu dijajah yang jadi “Tuan” dan yang dipanggil “Tuan” oleh orang Melayu sendiri ialah penjajah terutama British.

Kita boleh panggil diri kita “Tuan” tetapi jika kita terpaksa bergantung kepada orang lain dan kita menjadi kuli kepada mereka, memanggil diri kita Tuan tidak bermakna.

Dalam 50 tahun kita merdeka, kuasa politik ada pada kita. Ini membolehkan kita panggil diri kita “Tuan”. Tetapi kita tidak Tuan sepenuhnya.

Kita boleh jadi Tuan dengan ertikata yang bermakna jika orang Melayu berkebolehan dan berjaya dalam bidang ekonomi dan sosial juga. Ini boleh dihasilkan jika kita sanggup tuntut ilmu dan segala kemahiran dizaman teknologi tinggi. Tetapi kita amat kurang berusaha kearah ini. Kita lebih suka cari jalan mudah. Biar sahaja orang bekal segala-galanya kepada kita.......[continue reading @ ... HERE]

you know which part I exactly like?...
Kita boleh panggil diri kita “Tuan” tetapi jika kita terpaksa bergantung kepada orang lain dan kita menjadi kuli kepada mereka, memanggil diri kita Tuan tidak bermakna

Call yourself Tuans all you want, but until you have something to hold you up(and not NEPs), not many people are going to acknowledge any Tuan.

There was a comment to this post, about the colonial times in Melaka, Melaka was "founded" by Parameswara in the year 1402 and the Kesultanan Melayu Melaka held Melaka for 1100years! That is an achievement according to my textbook. But did you know that the Portuguese only had their independence a few hundred years before they invaded the world? And that the Kesultanan Melayu Melaka chose to give the main businesses to the everyone else (eg: Chinese - tin mining) ...and what were the Melayu Melaka doing then? According to my text book, they were still farmers and growing rempahs to be sold to the spice-loving British, who in-turn took over their economy handling.

ANNIEEwayss...back to the article, while I enjoyed the content and really really enjoyed the content, after reading the comments, I felt that either the article spoke to me in a different way or the rest of the thousands of readers did not get the message right.

I felt that Dr M was sending a sublime message by telling the Maleyu Melaysia that GET YOUR LAZY BUTT OFF THE CHAIR AND START DOING SOME WORK...rather than we must get our Ketuanan back and we own the country and we must destroy all light and dark.

In other words, i think Dr M just wanted to let the Maleys understand that if you want them(Satish and I) to call you Tuan, show me some of your capabilities and tell me why are you better than we are. And don't show me the History book.

Politics...everywhere...

Dr M... you are a great writer and I love reading your blog...
juicy...

SAKIT

SICK SICK SICK...

STUPID BACTERIA/VIRUS CHOOSE TO INFECT ME AT THE WRONG TIME.

SINUSITIS, CEPHALGIA, COUGH, PHLEGM, FEVER(YESTERDAY)...

SUPER IRRITATING...

so...whats up?
I know it's wrong to blame the weather for everything bad that's happening.
But my momma(not really la,just an illustration) told me that bad weather causes everything to go wrong.

eg;
1) Ali:Ah...everyone is falling sick lately,so terrible huh
Ben: Yalah, the weather is acting up again. Hot,cold,hot,cold...

2)Cat:I feel like sleeping la,can't concentrate in class at all!
Dan:I also feel like dozing off right now, the weather is so nice for sleeping now.

3)Ela:I hate traveling by bus cause the stupid bus never comes on time!
Fei:Somemore the busstop so cold,have to wait until frozen one!


See! Everything also blame the weather one!...

BUT

Let me tell you one thing, the weather is changing and nobody is doing anything about it. We all heard about the snow fall in India and Africa which killed thousands(or millions or something), Moscow had a (almost)no-snow winter this year. Malaysia is raining cats and dogs everyday...which is perfectly normal...

I think I'm going to be an environmentalist for today.

Quick Fact: do you know that your pretty Tupperwares is bad for the environment? It releases CO and some factors to the air, causing the temperature around it to increase... That's why when you walk into a plastic room, it's not pleasant one..

What Holiday?

As everyone else on planet earth, we in Moscow too have a long weekend.

In conjunction with Labour Day and Spring Day...we got the 1st and 2nd May off, but only to have the 2nd May replaced on the Sunday(4th i think...) and we have MASSAD on 3rd

and I have Music Practice, RMSA meeting, Social Bureau Meeting, Sayang Meeting, Spring Cleaning...

What holiday was I saying?...

I'm sure everyone is feeling the heat...(pun intended and not intended at the same time)
Keep yourself healthy and stay strong in d Lord....
No way around it..

Quote "Social Cultural A"
"Dude, if you can think of any other way to handle this, I am all for it man....but, thing is, there is no other way....It's just the way it is..."

can't agree more...

After MASSAD....I'm really hoping to not die of stress.
Thank You!

:D

God Bless...enjoy your Holiday!