fly me to the moon

Fly me to the moon

Let me sing among those stars

Let me see what spring is like

On jupiter and mars

In other words, hold my hand

In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song

Let me sing for ever more

You are all I long for

All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true

In other words, I love you

People are very funny sometimes.
Sometimes, we are just like people.

Buts and Becauses

John Mayer once said "Color change for no reason, words go from poetry to prose...When I'm not myself"

I have always believed that the reason why things happen around me is because I'm who I am. Things would not be the same, if I'm someone else. Today's color of the rainbow would not be red orange yellow when I'm someone else. Because I know that the RED I see, is not a RED anyone else would see. Because the wind would blow differently, if I'm someone else. Because the stars would appear less,or more, if I'm someone else.

This week(which has just begun) is one which is not about myself.

When you are not allowed to be yourself, you see what they see. Not what you want to see.
I am tired and exhausted, but they say the carriage will not reach it's destination without a horse pulling on it's wheels. You never seem to love enough, nor be allowed to...

Because who you truly are, suppresses the real you.

A puzzle with 5 edges can never complete the picture when all it need is 3..or sometimes just 2.

And no, I'm not talking about masks and make-ups here. This is what you are destined to be. This is true change. Because if it's up to me, everyone should be an artist, painting pictures that nobody would seem to appreciate. Or a writer writing his life story for his spouse to read. But no, life has shaped you and has a place for you in the society..
That is true change.

Should I even get into the pieces beside you in the big puzzle? Picture this, you have 2 poky pieces and 3 rough-edged pieces beside you, of course you're not a perfect piece everyone is dying for... maybe I have certain sides of me that needs smoothing. But the someone else you are tells you that its all that you can find to fit in. The real you can't fulfill your destiny in that place. No way. No freaking way. But nobody dares to disturb the big picture, because isn't that what it's all about, the big picture...Ends justifies means. period.

God, if you're taking me through this change. You better know what you're doing.
If not somebody's gonna get hurt real bad...

Everybody's Going Crazy ...

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
Won't stop 'til they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV's
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

News from the other side of the world...

THIS IS ALL WORDS AND MORE WORDS ONLY...

"If u got read newspaper today you will realised that lately got lotsa car hijack case. Those farkers would normally bang 9 the rear of your car and make it looks like an accident lidat then when u get down to inspect the damages they will then come and weck 9 you and hijack your car.

So, the next time someone whacked the rear of your car, dont stop and get down to take a look. Drive on to go nearest police station. Dont let those farkers overtake u! My sis were once chased by farkers lidis when she realised its a trap!

These farkers work in group of 4 in a car, they targetting expensip cars and women driver are their favourite victim. Yesh .. unfortunately they will be armed and dangerous .... so it pays to be aware of your enviroment and to look into your rear mirror frequently to see if there is any suspicious cars following you.

If there is really no choice ... give them your car! Its only a car and its probably insured right? Always remember these farkers only wanted your car and its not worth risking your life over a blardee car ok?! "

Above story taken from: http://rojaks.blogspot.com/ - my favourite blog !

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Sounds familar? I'm sure you friendster and fwd email junkies out there read this sort of "warning to the community". It's ussualy the scene in the carpark with the bag or giving a hand to an old lady.

It's good that these messages raises the awareness of such things happening around the country. Most people(young people in this case) would just ignore news like that in the newspaper...too small a frame for big and interesting news. Just 1 thing that I am very *insert your choice of word after reading the post* , according to the portion of news above, we are supposed to drive and run away right after we are involved in a car accident. A lil' too extreme don't you think?

What happened to friendly people, friendly nation, Malaysia boleh? It's good(and neccesary) to take safety precautions but don't la until too much. Imagine the poor fella who'd just kissed your ass(of the car), he gets out of his car with an tank full of mixed emotions then you drive away.
Take precautions and if you are alone. BE SMART.

Another thing that "pisses me off" is that, people really take those "community messages" seriously. I don't mean to say that they are supposed to be just put off. Those messages serve a purpose to let the people know of such happenings.But don't la just drive off like that...Different situations call for a different respond ok?

Read this other example;

This is a real story. It happened to my sister's friend just the other day at the LDP! While she was driving, a blue Wira who was behind her knocked her rear bumper. She was furios but at the same time worried that she was at fault. Being a new driver, she did not know how to respond and she just drove off.

2 days later she brought the car to the mechanics as the bumper was slightly broken and to her suprise the mechanics found a mechanical device attached to the bumper! It was actually a homing device which is used to track her car down. The authorities have confirmed with her that it is a new technic for car-jackers to locate their target cars!

So beware, next time you see a blue Wira. Make sure you bang the fella first and then go down and see if he got put any homing device on your car. DOn't just stay in your car, you might not know if the device would actually explode or not. Please, Please especially lady drivers, don't stay in your car after an accident, be in the open where everybody can see you!

So what are you gonna do now?
By the way, the later story is of course fake.

Here are some other examples;
"Next time an old lady asks you for a hand to help her carry her things across the road, don't do it! She will take the opportunity to grab your hand bags!"
VS
"Next time an old lady asks you for a hand to help her carry her things across the road, MAKE SURE YOU DO IT! She might be an officer from the local ABC group which monitors the problems of the youth society.They are ussualy accompanied by the police and religous groups."

"Don't bring an umbrella when you don't need to. Studies have shown that people with umbrella are more likely to be struck by lightning and banged by busses"
VS
"Bring an umbrella to look for the blue WIRA and go beat the driver with it."

Have your own mind.
People are not that stupid, ok?

What do you do...when you've burned your heart(part3)

You never thought it'll come to this yeah?

Well, maybe a little, but nothing else.

She saw your wound, and decided to pour formalin on it.

Yes, pour. Not rub.

It is as though the nods and the thank you's don't work anymore.
No biggie. You apologize.

You promise improvement.

You cry at home where noone hears you.

What do you do...when you've burned your heart(part2)

You know something is not right when you forgot to return her keys.

You made her walk 50m to tell you that.

Something bad is bound to happen,
especially when she affirmed it just a week ago.

A slap on the face is the least you should expect. The least.

So what do you really do, when your heart is on fire?
You have 3 other items on your schedule.
The air is not cool anymore. Hot I should say. No, scorching sounds better.
When you are stuck and you have nowhere to run.

You nod your head, and you say your thank you.
"Yes, ma'am. Thank you, ma'am".
Even when she has just sneered at you?
Yes, you say your thank you.

Should you go around the whole world crying shamlessly,
or rather walk back with pride to your seat. Pretending.
She throws sacarsm at you. The whole world knows it now.
You smile. You nod. You say your thank you.

Looks like the weather is not on your side this time around, eh?

why?
This is why.

NEED

I really really really need to cry ... but not yet.. wait...

hope is not dead...

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I have 3posts pending to be released..sorry for the long delays in posting...

Hectic week

Phew, I'm glad its the weekends already.(Don't burst my bubble la..I know its still Thursday)

How does one deal with changes in his/her life?..
I'm not talking about the change in diet, nor something small like the change in sleeping time...

How do you handle changes that will change your life?

A little deep there but it is the exact question my brain is asking my heart right now.

I was reading the book "How to be a Christian without being religious" and there was one part where it was mentioned

'everyone is looking for the same things in life, they may present themselves as
other things but generally, its all the same.

Confidence, peace, love, hope, happiness, security and accomplishment.'

Where does "assurance" come in within those categories uh?
Sometimes it all just feels like a river flowing mundane-ly. No warning where the next waterfalls will be. Just happy with the flow.

Taking things for granted.

ahhh...sometimes it feels so nice to have a clear purpose.
Sometimes it doesn't.
Sometimes...

Are you....

...Lonely?




Oh before anything...
**Aku pulangggggg** (listen to the song then you'll understand la)

The past week(almost, can?) that I've been off my laptop has certainly brought me closer to those I trully love. My bed. My pillows. My dearly dearly dearly beloved....blanket.
Books also got la...I finish my Prayer for Owen Meany d! Uncle lish u wana know d ending?

muhahaha...

I never realised that I needed so much sleep. I've not felt the oversleeping(as in..too much sleep) kinda feeling for a very very long time now. I find myself addicted to looking at the stars after what R Factor...
Look up to d sky and see d works of your Creator..

I realised that I've not posted much about my daily life like most blogger does, so this is 1 that will sumarize my whole week for your eyes :)

I've had a super mixed week.

There.Vseo.
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Have you ever felt the loneliness in you calling out?
You look at the people around you. There might be a thousand ways to relate to them in all ways.
Still, those laughters you share with them is soon to be turned into your own cries when the realization of which(Russian style English!), those times are just, times.
You can't share them anywhere. It's like a bowl of Prawn Mee. You order it. Eat it. You leave.

You don't bring the bowl back home...

Sometimes(just sometimes,really), I wish to have my own prawns so I can have that bowl of mee, whenever.

What do you do...when you've burned your heart?

So the teacher looks you right in the face, yeah?

She keeps on looking while you're telling her things she want to hear...

She squirms a little, but nothing else. You keep talking.

She Throws A Punch Right At Your Nose.

What would you do.?
What can you do, without ruining the day for everybody else?
That people around you will not be affected by your future actions.

You smile at the teacher.
"Oh well, thank you ma'am. "
and hold in as tight as possible your lacrimal sac from bursting.
The fire that seem to be getting hotter by the minute, no, second.
You look at her again.
And you say your thank you.
And you smile.

You think back all the times that you have NOT even touched your bed.
The chips you had to eat in place of proper fried rice.
The sensation of knocking your head on the table, result of fatigue.
You've probably forgotten what does the pillow smell like.
Looking at the dejected blanket which has fallen on the floor.

You smile and you say your thank you.

You do not cry.
You go home and you tell your mummy about it.
And go for a walk, won't you?
Subzero temperature is good for raging fire I last heard.
Get some sleep too, while you're at it.

You politely nod your head.
"Thank You, Ma'am"