I have a reason to sing...

"Now I actually remember sitting in the hospital right after everything happened, and knowing that I needed to sing and doing what I know I'm supposed to be doing, and I felt like just a victory for us..."

"Cause I don't always feel like it, I don't feel like...somehow I don't feel like singing for God, but I know that my second sense in this season doesn't change that God is still God.."

"It doesn't change what God has called me to be, called me to do. He's still on the throne in Heaven, He still rule, He's still bigger than everything that I'm facing..."

"I remember singing and not felt like how I've felt before..it's like 'I know You're here God, but maybe it's because of my brokenness, the cut was so deep and it was so fresh then, but i knew I just needed to keep singing..."

Changes and Needs

today is the 25th of October.
30 days before I am no longer a noob in the adult life
I shall be 21 in a month's time.
I need to put away childish things..

Too many changes have took place since the last week...
and I'm sensing that this would be one of the weeks where alot of things will unexpectedly happen.
So why not join in the fun and create more trouble for myself :)

I will attempt to be Badawi and make the changes that I've failed to make in 21 years of my life...and change them in 30days.

God, if You have ever been there...make sure You read this blog ok?

1. Live out my life as if I have a list of priorities(at least pretend to have one)
2. Sleep by 2am every night and wake up 7.45 to go for lecture EVERYDAY.
3. Start a tabung to save for snowy days
4. Read the bible(doesn't matter how many times.Just read)
5. I am in the student's council. Do something.
6. Eat vege. First, buy vege.
7.
8.
9.
10.
TBC

day light saving is over... now starts day light killing...

oh man...

GOD 2 : 1 WEEKS

anyways, today was orientation day and the first of it's kind.
Sri & Co Bureau worked their butts off for it and I have to admit that it wasn't as bad as I had dreamed it to be...

anyways, ahh....

How I wish I can say that life is good once again..
:)



Orientation 2008

-TERFAINTED-

WHY ISN'T MY CAT LIKE THAT ONE!!??!??

oh wait..
she's even cuter than that!
All I need now is a video camera..
:)

Stress-free day...
I'm already begining to like PathAnat ...

Oh yeah,

GOD 1 : 0 WEEKS

Buts and Becauses

John Mayer once said "Color change for no reason, words go from poetry to prose...When I'm not myself"

I have always believed that the reason why things happen around me is because I'm who I am. Things would not be the same, if I'm someone else. Today's color of the rainbow would not be red orange yellow when I'm someone else. Because I know that the RED I see, is not a RED anyone else would see. Because the wind would blow differently, if I'm someone else. Because the stars would appear less,or more, if I'm someone else.

This week(which has just begun) is one which is not about myself.

When you are not allowed to be yourself, you see what they see. Not what you want to see.
I am tired and exhausted, but they say the carriage will not reach it's destination without a horse pulling on it's wheels. You never seem to love enough, nor be allowed to...

Because who you truly are, suppresses the real you.

A puzzle with 5 edges can never complete the picture when all it need is 3..or sometimes just 2.

And no, I'm not talking about masks and make-ups here. This is what you are destined to be. This is true change. Because if it's up to me, everyone should be an artist, painting pictures that nobody would seem to appreciate. Or a writer writing his life story for his spouse to read. But no, life has shaped you and has a place for you in the society..
That is true change.

Should I even get into the pieces beside you in the big puzzle? Picture this, you have 2 poky pieces and 3 rough-edged pieces beside you, of course you're not a perfect piece everyone is dying for... maybe I have certain sides of me that needs smoothing. But the someone else you are tells you that its all that you can find to fit in. The real you can't fulfill your destiny in that place. No way. No freaking way. But nobody dares to disturb the big picture, because isn't that what it's all about, the big picture...Ends justifies means. period.

God, if you're taking me through this change. You better know what you're doing.
If not somebody's gonna get hurt real bad...

Everybody's Going Crazy ...

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
Won't stop 'til they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV's
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Open House

By Elizabeth Berg..
Page 238
Excerpt;

"You were very happy in your marriage, too, weren't you?"Lydia asks my mother.
"We were. Sad to say, I think that's a rare thing. I think most young people today are so focused on tomorrow they forget all about today. And I think they're as afraid of happiness as they are of pain! Scared to say they care. Scared to take a chance. Scared to say they're just as sentimental and full of human need as people always have been and always will be. "
"It's true," Lydia says, stirring her tea.

Do you know that there are about 9 703 species of birds divided up into 23 orders, 142 families and 2 057 genera. And there may be between 100,000 and 200,000 million adult or near adult birds on the planet at any one time.
The bible says that without our knowledge, our Heavenly Father feeds the birds of the air...

People worry too much too much.

But is it wrong to worry?

Do you know that if your mum did not worry about you in the stomach, you would not be here today.

So whats the key word over here?
Nope, not balance. Not kesederhanaan.

Wisdom.

17th October 2008

As of 1.09am (Moscow local time) , Ong Wee Kee is the hungriest guy in the world.
Please feed the needy.


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ohh i have waffles

KITTIES!!!!!!

*drops dead*

The Kite Runner

Go fly kite la you...

Last Saturday, our bible study group had our first ever movie night..
We were supposed to watch "Facing The Giants"..a very Christian and boring movie..
I mean, how stereotypical can you get...
A guy who lost everything and is failing in everything read a bible verse and suddenly his entire life is changed...

Although its for a bible study group...but it might just scare people out of Christianity itself..

So I had to go movie hunting the entire night...
browsing through IMDB, RottenTomatoes, and even at some point MrSkin(honest browsing only) for good, cool, inspiring Christian movies...
but most of them are made by the same producer and they all kinda suck(sorry lah,I know you're trying to evangelize...but really boring lah)

anyhow, i stumbled upon The Kite Runner...



and this is my review of it...

2 best friends, shared everything but their status, one as the master, the other the servant. Although the master kid had everything, but he had not courage and honor... whereas the servant kid had not everything but that. Amir(the master kid) one day realized that he did not have the courage to stand up for his best friend Hassan(the servant kid) and had not even the courage to face himself after betraying Hassan. He forces Hassan out of his life and continued his own without a trace of guilt..

until when one day he is recalled back to his homeland to face his past...
Amir finally regret all his wrongdoings but now he has no way to repay Hassan. There is no ways left to ask for his forgiveness. It was too late.

But its never too late.

Amir did what he could, putting his life on the line just so that Hassan's debt of friendship could be repayed, be it in full or partially.

from this movie, I realized that there is such thing as being too late...
if i can't forgive someone today, I may never have the chance ever to do so..


oh god please help me.

SPARTANS !!!

AHOO, AHOO, AHOO

AH..HH...HHHHHHH...CHOOOOOOOOOOOO


8 brave soldiers, 20 minutes is their destiny, they cannot(can lah) fail...


Faizal, Satish, GKG, Kumin, Rama, G-Nesh, and Weeks.

We formed this team last year during the Tamil New Year's Cup mainly to play for fun. but kinda became the surprise package when we managed to beat a couple of established team and entered into the quaters before being eliminated by the actual winners, but not without conceding an early goal to us.

Unlike alot of the teams, our team's goal is to have a fun, fair and enjoyable game. Goals come and goals go but the team stays together as one.

This year in RFL, we target to be the team with the most fun.

Watch out Pinkies.. We're gonna outfun you.

p/s: sorry no group pic yet.

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oh by the way today played futsal after a long long month ..
legs were itching to the max and stress was building up like the tower of babel
this 1 hour we had on the court is probably the most carefree time ive had for a very long time..

bubbles went away for the weekends.

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maybe its a good thing that Boss is doing everything for everyone,especially for me.
Maybe he's a godsent...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

Hapiness

is only true, when shared...

confused?

:)

then suddenly after some considerations

:(


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p/s : got my new comp up and running.looks blardy cool man.

the one without words..

i dont want this blog to look like its youtube infested..
so here comes imeem

白色的风车

安静的纯真

真实的感觉

梦境般遥远

甜甜的海水

复杂的眼泪

看你傻笑着

握住我的手

梦希望没有尽头

我们走到这就好

因为我不想太快走完这幸福

很可惜没有祝福

但爱你并不孤独

不会再让你哭

我陪你走到最后

能不能不要回头

你紧紧地抱住我

说你不需要承诺

你说我若一个人会比较自由

我不懂你说什么

反正不会松手

我陪你走到最后

能不能别想太多

会不会手牵着手

晚一点再到尽头

你说不该再相见只为了瞬间

谢谢你让我听见

因为我在等待永远

白色的风车

安静的纯真

真实的感觉

梦境般遥远

甜甜的海水

复杂的眼泪

看你傻笑着

握住我的手

很可惜没有祝福

但爱你并不孤独

不会再让你哭

我陪你走到最后

能不能不要回头

你紧紧地抱住我

说你不需要承诺

你说我若一个人会比较自由

我不懂你说什么

反正不会松手

我陪你走到最后

能不能别想太多

会不会手牵着手

晚一点再到尽头

你说不该再相见只为了瞬间

谢谢你让我听见

因为我在等待永远

谢谢你让我听见

因为我在等待永远